1 post tagged “correspondences”

wanted to email you love letters
and tell you how much I miss you
and how much you taught me,
but I remembered that you were in love and she
was a brunette and I really have no chance in competing with a brunette
because I don't have a real job still and I keep thinking maybe
I should grow up one day and stop writing poetry about how maybe
I loved you but I don't anymore and the only place I can say it is some obscure website on the Internet
because if I told anyone what would I say, but
'He scorned me and he taught me how to take all of the emotion out of love and
send it to my mother for Christmas because she needs it more than I do and that's what family does,
sometimes.'
No one ever tells me how they can't live without me via text message late at night
they just tell me that they want me to suck their cock speeding down the interstate with their
hands wrapped up in my hair or gripping my ass
telling me how beautiful I look
but you cant even see my face and I don't know why you compliment your toys--
they don't move, or see, or feel, or care anyhow.
And you taught me how to hate
but I've never hated you like you wanted me to
I hated that all these fairy tales I dreamed about were fairy tales and your face and words and blocking my email address and filing the restraining order reflected that maybe you didn't feel the same way as I did anymore
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of a text message to you, but I realize I deleted your phone number a long time ago, which is good because I'll never remember it anyhow because it never really was that important to you for me to keep in touch because you liked the way I fucked with heels on and how I used to talk dirty to you over the phone late at night, but you made me feel like I was 16 and I automatically resent saying so because
maybe you'll google me one day and i'll show up on a page next to an lolcats link and
you'll drink an americano with hazelnut in it because you just simply cant stand the taste of coffee, but you love coffee because that's the american dream and that's why you get americanos because one day you're going to be famous.
you wanted more than I did. i dont understand.